Thursday, September 15, 2016

Why?

There once was a quote from a movie, "you can't win no matter what you do" and today, I heartbreakingly realized that it was true.  No matter how hard you fight, how many times you try, how much work you've done, how much effort you put into something, no matter how motivated you are, how positive you are, it just doesn't matter.  Nothing ever works out the way it should.  I've seen it time and time again and I keep fooling myself thinking that our "luck" has to change sometime, somewhere, in someway, right?.  All this trash that we've had to crawl through for so long has to have an end.  A place where we can just shake all the bad and negative away.  I look up and see a mountain of trash ahead.  I am tired and weary.

Why fight?  Why try? Why put your all into something that won’t matter.  Why put your heart into something that is destined to crash and burn?  Why, when I fall, do I get back up, only to fall harder and suffer more?  When do you say enough is enough?  When do you throw the white flag in and surrender to the inevitable?  When do you toss your dreams aside and just accept that you will never win.

“Never surrender” “You can do anything you put your mind to”  “Hard work pays off”  “Never give up”   They sound nice but in reality they are nothing but words.  Words that are meaningless.   The lazy win, the bad wins and the popular win so it really doesn’t matter in the big scheme of things.